Blog Changes….. Turns Personal….. What’s important?

I think there are a lot of things in life that come full circle.   12 years ago, I started this blog as a family/personal blog, and then as my business had grown, I felt pressured to turn this into a business blog, and then I floundered around not doing anything with it, because I was confusing myself.  A few things happened in the past few months that really have made me realize where my love of photography came from.  It came from being able to capture my family and our experiences.  I’d like to change this back to a personal blog.   I have a business site so there is really no reason to have two business sites.  Feel free to browse and connect here for fun or, if you are looking to book a photo session, please go to  🙂

Not too long ago, I was balancing my full time photography business, my college work (restarted college late in life), and my family.  Owning your own business is about the most difficult and time-consuming and stressful situation.  I’m not talking about the photographers that do this “for fun”… I’m talking about those who absolutely do this to support their families and run their businesses as businesses, not as hobbies.

I took my husband in for routine sinus surgery and biopsies of a “mass” (kind of in the back of his head).   The surgeon came out and spoke to me about an hour and a half later than expected, the surgery ran long.   I love this surgeon. I’ve known her for years.  She performed surgery on both of my children.  I actually used to transcribe her medical records years ago.  She was not one to fold under pressure or freak out, but I could see the concern on her face.  She was concerned because his blood pressure could not be controlled during surgery, and he bled out pretty bad, definitely way more than one would expect with sinus surgery.

I took him home.  He didn’t look right.  This is my big strong man that two hours after his last knee surgery was eating a plate of meatballs and pizza.  I ran over to the barn to check on our pregnant mare,and when I came back a few hours later, his skin looked so pale it had a green cast to it.  Something was WRONG.

I asked him how he felt.  “Not good.”  His heart was pounding out of his chest at rest.  I ran him down to the emergency room.  The moment I got him through the doors, the hospital staff took over… right to triage.  The worried looks on all the nurses was very concerning.  Lots of horrible pictures in my head of what could happen.  Needless to say, it was a long night…… It took hours, but they were finally able to control his heart rate and blood pressure.

That night was a turning point in my head.  I know it may sound odd, but at that moment, I realized what was important to me and what was important to my life.  I realized that I had been living so stressed out with my business and everything else, that I had to make changes.

I’ll go into more detail about the changes later on…… but this photo, I took with my cell phone the next night after we had gotten out of the hospital and posted it to my personal facebook page.  It kind of says it all….

“Head on his chest, listening to his heart beat the correct way…..the best! — with Dean Otte.”


My perspective on a lot of things changed that night.  We have made a lot of changes to our personal and work lives…….

About Jodie Otte

Maryland Newborn Photographer and Child Portrait Artist, Jodie Holstein-Otte, specializes in unique photography of newborn babies, kids, and families. She works on location in Harford, Howard, Cecil, Anne Arundel, Baltimore and other areas throughout Maryland. She uses both both natural lighting and soft studio lighting techniques.

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